忘了的思念

最近好久没在这和大家报告状况了，快一个月了吧！最近都忙于考试，当然现在考试仍然还没结束。最近的夜晚时常下起大雨，点燃我快遗忘的思念。过去的点点滴滴，过去所做的决定，突然间都觉得过去的自己好愚昧，不懂得什么是珍惜。我的执著，伤害了一个对我很重要的人，虽然她与我都不想结束这场恋爱，但我却让她掉泪了。我的思想，伤害了一个对我很亲切的人，在任何时候都注意着我的举动，而我却再一次得让另一个她掉泪了。我的迟钝，让我错过了一个我只要说出口，就能很幸福的对象，而我却如此的迟钝。这几夜，我反反复复得想了好多遍。我恨透了从前的自己，我已不想回去过去的生活了。放手，是我现在唯一要上的一堂课。大家，我们都不许在原地走动哦！要一起向前走。

The lesson i learned on my life

Lately, i kinda remind or so call reflash back some memory of mine. Too many pieces of memory to remember, too much of puzzle need to be solve. But the lesson i had learned from me and my friend, is that when "love" exist, it is impossible that being a friend will be satisfy. We will always asking more than friend when love exist. I think most of the people reading this post know well who i m mentioning. Haha! And another lesson is that it will never be a "friend" when there's no room or no starting for being a couple. When one is being reject, friendship is gone as well as the feeling of "love". Like what i m saying, when love exist, friend just don sound enough. Dont know whether i m searching for new love life or is me who are thinking too much, love is the lesson that i cant get 100% in it.

A good guy?????

I kinda remember back the moment me and my girlfriend went out for a date with her friends. Lots of fun we had and lots of nice memory we had back then, but still her face seems like missing something. Smilling but seems like smilling with no energy. Everytime when i sent her back, just before i leave, she always said: " William, you are a good guy." I though she was praising me, so i return her with a smile and she does it back, but in down expression. I still can't get what she mean back then, so with the following years. Even when we broke up, when i stop by at her house, she still saying the same thing. Last night, when a friend back at UNIMAS asked me for some help, and i do her a flavor. She said the same thing, "William, you are a good guy." After i notice what she said, i kinda remind what my ex gf said. Then i asked her back, " Why on earth i don't have a gf if i realy are the good guy you think?" She explain that i treat all people in a equal good, no matter who they are, girls wouldn't want it that way. Feel likes my good is belong to everyone, not she alone. Back then, i realise what my ex gf want to said. I really felt sorry for her. I don't know that being a good guy can hurt someone we love. This is a lesson we can't get it during class.

神様の手紙

神様、わたしは知ってる、この望みはむりです。でも、わたしはもう見たくない。わたしの愛する人、わたしの友達、みんなの愛する人は死にます。みんなもうがんばった、いてる為に。たから、おねがいです、もういです。みんな好い人です。たから、お願いです。

Life is fragile

Lately, i found that too many ppl around me are facing their beloved's most natural, unpredictable, sad and yet unchangeable of human life cycle ending path, death. I know is hard to accept the truth that they are leaving us but we have to live on the life which they can't and be strong for those who are leaving us. I know it sound easy and yet is hard or almost inpossible to do so at the moment, but "family". "friend" will be always be there for us. I do know that feeling, my grandparent, tuition teacher and some of my friend's beloved, have answer to God's summon. We maybe can't challenge the fate, but it isn't an excuse to sit there and accept our destiny. Everyone of us will face death someday, but till then, we have to stay strong to live, live for ourself, live for those who loved us. Stay strong, all my friend.

After The Trip TO KK

I was too tired yesterday and hardly can wrote my blog after the trip to kk. Although the express sure took long time for us to reach, still we have lots of funs which including, having dinner with a bunch of friends, window shopping, pooling, movie-ing and get to know 2 new friends, Jamie( if i m not mispelling) and shi tao po. Haha! We went for movies back at kk which were the Final Destination and the Murderer. This 2 movies i found the ending very boring and way from my expectation but seeing 1 of my friend so scare till didnt even speak a word after watching the Final Destination, i think is worth it. Haha! Joking. Times fly pass and now me and my friend are back at Labuan, facing a cruel but a true reality, midterm. 3 midterm this week and i think i will KO. Haha!

Lack of Sleeping

This few days, is really a tired and non sleeping days. At first worry about the car that i drove, but that already settle. Second, i worry about you, piggy. I really do. If you are seeing this post, i want to let u know that i will always be there for you, so stay tough. Cant sleep well this 2 days because of you. Worry, worry and still worrying. Thirdly, Frances Ling, heard most news from bee kiet d. Don't just asking whether i let go d or not, firstly ask yourself whether you let go d o not. If u you ask me, i will tell you that i let go d, u? Life full with unexpectable and mysteries. I really hope that the friend around me will full with happiness,although we cant be happy all the time but when that time arrive, that's what friends for. Do take care, everyone.