A good guy?????

I kinda remember back the moment me and my girlfriend went out for a date with her friends. Lots of fun we had and lots of nice memory we had back then, but still her face seems like missing something. Smilling but seems like smilling with no energy. Everytime when i sent her back, just before i leave, she always said: " William, you are a good guy." I though she was praising me, so i return her with a smile and she does it back, but in down expression. I still can't get what she mean back then, so with the following years. Even when we broke up, when i stop by at her house, she still saying the same thing. Last night, when a friend back at UNIMAS asked me for some help, and i do her a flavor. She said the same thing, "William, you are a good guy." After i notice what she said, i kinda remind what my ex gf said. Then i asked her back, " Why on earth i don't have a gf if i realy are the good guy you think?" She explain that i treat all people in a equal good, no matter who they are, girls wouldn't want it that way. Feel likes my good is belong to everyone, not she alone. Back then, i realise what my ex gf want to said. I really felt sorry for her. I don't know that being a good guy can hurt someone we love. This is a lesson we can't get it during class.

神様の手紙

神様、わたしは知ってる、この望みはむりです。でも、わたしはもう見たくない。わたしの愛する人、わたしの友達、みんなの愛する人は死にます。みんなもうがんばった、いてる為に。たから、おねがいです、もういです。みんな好い人です。たから、お願いです。

Life is fragile

Lately, i found that too many ppl around me are facing their beloved's most natural, unpredictable, sad and yet unchangeable of human life cycle ending path, death. I know is hard to accept the truth that they are leaving us but we have to live on the life which they can't and be strong for those who are leaving us. I know it sound easy and yet is hard or almost inpossible to do so at the moment, but "family". "friend" will be always be there for us. I do know that feeling, my grandparent, tuition teacher and some of my friend's beloved, have answer to God's summon. We maybe can't challenge the fate, but it isn't an excuse to sit there and accept our destiny. Everyone of us will face death someday, but till then, we have to stay strong to live, live for ourself, live for those who loved us. Stay strong, all my friend.

After The Trip TO KK

I was too tired yesterday and hardly can wrote my blog after the trip to kk. Although the express sure took long time for us to reach, still we have lots of funs which including, having dinner with a bunch of friends, window shopping, pooling, movie-ing and get to know 2 new friends, Jamie( if i m not mispelling) and shi tao po. Haha! We went for movies back at kk which were the Final Destination and the Murderer. This 2 movies i found the ending very boring and way from my expectation but seeing 1 of my friend so scare till didnt even speak a word after watching the Final Destination, i think is worth it. Haha! Joking. Times fly pass and now me and my friend are back at Labuan, facing a cruel but a true reality, midterm. 3 midterm this week and i think i will KO. Haha!